Passion

So, yesterday a friend asked me what I’m passionate about and I didn’t really have an answer. I feel like I spend most of my time thinking about other people’s needs (both physical and emotional) and so I don’t spend much time thinking about what I’m passionate about and whether I’m spending my time and energy on those things. I spend a lot of time and energy on a lot of things, but does that mean I’m passionate about them? So here’s my list:

1) my kids and my family- these are the people I would fight for, lay down my life for, do anything for; and family for me is a loose term because it includes the friends for whom I care deeply, I didn’t have much extended family growing up so I think that’s why this has adapted into this, and I also moved around a lot so that’s why I make friends easily, lose them easily, and count the ones as family that stay around

2) my faith-it’s unwavering, I have no doubts, I know what I believe, I may not be comfortable talking about it (probably because I’m so passionate about it that it sits in a deep part of my heart that I’m not comfortable sharing with others) but it doesn’t make my faith any less real than the person that’s gonna debate you about it till they are blue in the face

3)other moms- helping everyone of them realize that they aren’t alone, no one is judging them and that, if someone is, it says more about the other person than it does about them, also, that they are all amazing moms and their kids are amazing; so excited about the mops group I’m starting next week to help channel this passion

4) making others feel included- this kinda goes along with the mom thing, but it really extends past that; I think I’ve spent my whole life as an outsider and so I don’t want anyone else to ever feel that way, that’s why I share things (personal details) with people and invite everyone everywhere; if I can make one more person feel loved and included, then I’ll do it

5)Physical fitness- I know this is a shocker, but I am very passionate about this. I love when other people decide to take a step towards healthy living, especially when it involves running 😀 but I’m also not gonna guilt people if they can’t. Everyone is in a different season of life where different things are priorities and that’s ok if physical fitness isn’t a priority for a person right now. As long as it becomes one at some point, because its very important for mental, physical, and emotional health, then that’s all that matters.

6)Music- I have a constant running track in my head and usually have music playing in some way or another. Thankfully I have two children that share my love of music, so it makes every day better!

7)Dancing- I love doing it in any form I can! It’s my greatest source of joy lately (other than those two amazing kids)! The only problem with dancing is that a lot of the varieties require a partner and that’s just not as much fun (it’s not really hubby’s forte)…thankfully I’ve started line dancing and most of the dances can be done alone. Yay!

8) Enjoying life and making the most of every day- This seems to me like something everyone would be passionate about, but I just don’t know. For me it’s about finding what makes you happy and enjoying that to the fullest each day, not worrying about things I can’t change or control, and loving on those that are important to me.

So back to my original question: am I spending my time pursuing the things I’m passionate about?

And I can answer that with a resounding YES!

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Is social media making the mommy wars worse?

When I had my son 4 years ago, I didn’t feel all the pressure to read 40 books, potty train at birth, cloth diaper, or breastfeed till they were seven. My MIL had given me the baby wise books which were short and concise (about all I had time for at that point) which I read and followed loosely. But mainly I did what felt right and didn’t really worry about it. (I’m not saying that I didn’t have any mommy guilt or worries, but it didn’t stem from other people). Now, as hubby and I are thinking about having a third, the pressure about what to do for our baby (from other mommies, who I know are just “trying to help”) is crazy! Between the latest trendiest cloth diapers (“oh my goodness Rachael, have you heard what’s in a disposable diaper and what it’s doing to the environment?”) to how not cosleeping is the reason my daughter is so clingy and how both my children will be scarred for life because of it, it’s just overwhelming! It got me to thinking, have I changed that much since I had my son (sure we moved from the South, to Colorado, to the Northeast, and I went from having a full time job and no time to worry about what other moms thought of my parenting, to a stay at home mom who’s main focus is my kiddos) or did the world around me change? I think that while I have changed and may have more time to focus on worrying about what options are out there for my kids, the main difference is that now social media (Facebook, twitter, blogs, etc) give us instant access to the opinions and daily happenings of just about every other type of mom on the planet! At a thumbs swipe, we can compare and be compared to tons of moms and this is making the mommy wars 10X worse! Just my opinion…

The beginning

So, I’ve decided to blog. Partially because I’m bored and partially because I hope other people can get something useful out of the information and experiences amassed in my brain.

So, let’s just start with the basics. I am a large girl who LOVES to eat! I love healthy food and I love junk food! There aren’t really many foods that I’ve found that I don’t like (except most mint things, but that’s a story for another day). I am 5’9 (which i just found out recently, but I had thought for forever that I was 5’10, mind blown!) and I am pretty sure I have the build of a linebacker. I have worked out pretty consistently since I was about 15 and I’ve been overweight my whole life. Just to clarify, I would not workout if I were natural skinny. Sometimes I think about how many hours of my life I could have saved and how amazing it would be to not worry every day of my life about what I weigh, if God had only made me naturally skinny. However, there’s got to be a purpose to my suffering. I trust in God enough to know He has a purpose! Maybe this is step 1 in his plan or maybe it’s just a way for me to put my thoughts together. Only God knows!

So back to the explanation of me. I have two kiddos. When I got pregnant with my first one, Jack, I weighed about 225lb (a personal high for me). After he was born though, my hubby and I worked really hard (dieting and trying to workout) and I got down to 170 (my lowest adult weight). Then I got pregnant with my daughter, Lily Rose, and the pregnancy plus newborn stage added about 35lbs to me. I was at 205lb when I decided to run the Disney Princess Half Marathon with one of my best friends Kim. We just completed the half marathon (details in another post) and I am now down around 179lbs and still working. My hubby, Matt, and I try to eat healthier (grilled chicken, a starch, and a veggies a few nights a week and diet desserts instead of regular ones) and we are doing the insanity workout program (we are about to start week 4 and it’s hard, but getting easier every day). So this is my blog about dieting, about running, about life.