So, yesterday a friend asked me what I’m passionate about and I didn’t really have an answer. I feel like I spend most of my time thinking about other people’s needs (both physical and emotional) and so I don’t spend much time thinking about what I’m passionate about and whether I’m spending my time and energy on those things. I spend a lot of time and energy on a lot of things, but does that mean I’m passionate about them? So here’s my list:

1) my kids and my family- these are the people I would fight for, lay down my life for, do anything for; and family for me is a loose term because it includes the friends for whom I care deeply, I didn’t have much extended family growing up so I think that’s why this has adapted into this, and I also moved around a lot so that’s why I make friends easily, lose them easily, and count the ones as family that stay around

2) my faith-it’s unwavering, I have no doubts, I know what I believe, I may not be comfortable talking about it (probably because I’m so passionate about it that it sits in a deep part of my heart that I’m not comfortable sharing with others) but it doesn’t make my faith any less real than the person that’s gonna debate you about it till they are blue in the face

3)other moms- helping everyone of them realize that they aren’t alone, no one is judging them and that, if someone is, it says more about the other person than it does about them, also, that they are all amazing moms and their kids are amazing; so excited about the mops group I’m starting next week to help channel this passion

4) making others feel included- this kinda goes along with the mom thing, but it really extends past that; I think I’ve spent my whole life as an outsider and so I don’t want anyone else to ever feel that way, that’s why I share things (personal details) with people and invite everyone everywhere; if I can make one more person feel loved and included, then I’ll do it

5)Physical fitness- I know this is a shocker, but I am very passionate about this. I love when other people decide to take a step towards healthy living, especially when it involves running 😀 but I’m also not gonna guilt people if they can’t. Everyone is in a different season of life where different things are priorities and that’s ok if physical fitness isn’t a priority for a person right now. As long as it becomes one at some point, because its very important for mental, physical, and emotional health, then that’s all that matters.

6)Music- I have a constant running track in my head and usually have music playing in some way or another. Thankfully I have two children that share my love of music, so it makes every day better!

7)Dancing- I love doing it in any form I can! It’s my greatest source of joy lately (other than those two amazing kids)! The only problem with dancing is that a lot of the varieties require a partner and that’s just not as much fun (it’s not really hubby’s forte)…thankfully I’ve started line dancing and most of the dances can be done alone. Yay!

8) Enjoying life and making the most of every day- This seems to me like something everyone would be passionate about, but I just don’t know. For me it’s about finding what makes you happy and enjoying that to the fullest each day, not worrying about things I can’t change or control, and loving on those that are important to me.

So back to my original question: am I spending my time pursuing the things I’m passionate about?

And I can answer that with a resounding YES!


Update on balance and diet

So, I’ve been completely off any whole 30 resemblance diet for about 3 weeks now. I got to the point where I had no appetite. Nothing sounded appetizing, whole 30 compliant or otherwise, and I just wasn’t enjoying food anymore. This made me really quite bummed. I actually lost 4lbs one week simply from not eating because I wasn’t hungry and wasn’t craving anything. I’m blaming this feeling on the whole30. I feel like I trained my body not to give in to cravings of any sort and then it just became easier not to eat than to eat something I didn’t want and would take a lot of time to prepare.

So, for the last 3 weeks I’ve just been trying to rediscover my love for food. I’m trying to find that balance still…I eat what I want when I want to and I don’t eat if I’m not hungry or nothing sounds good. I put back on 1.5lbs of those 4 that I lost that I didn’t want to. I felt like once I got down those 4lbs my curves were starting to disappear. I want to be healthy, not skinny.

Ive had a couple of amazing food experiences in the last couple of days, so I think my love of food is returning! Yay! Going out for lasagna on federal hill today for lunch, mmm!

I start officially training for my half marathons in a week or two, so that should help boost the appetite too.

Will keep you posted!


Everything in Moderation

So, I’m still trying to figure out what works for me. Trying to figure out how to enjoy the not so good for me foods occasionally, but not going crazy. For me I’m trying following whole30 completely every other day and then on the off days indulging a little. I still try to eat the majority of my meals whole 30 (2 out of 3) and I try to limit myself to 1 dessert on these days. This worked great last week, I lost 2lbs which is great since I’m not actually trying to lose weight anymore.

**Explanation: the whole30 is something you do for 30 days no cheating, so I know I’m not doing it when I skip every other day; what I mean by whole 30 here is no sugar, no sweeteners, no alcohol, no dairy, no gluten, and no legumes